My inner rebel

There has always been a part of me that has wanted to be a bit unique and a bit cool. I don't really think that I am either of these things. The person who tries to be cool and unique generally isn't but I have given up any attempt to be either and opted for just going with what I like.

I often envy the image of the yummy mummy. You know who I'm talking about, the mum who owns a multitude of bretton stripes, skinny jeans and trainers. The mummy who still manages to do her hair and make up as well as ensure that the children are immaculately turned out. I am not that woman. I am never immaculate. Unless I am going somewhere really special, the most styling my hair gets is a quick blow dry and a brush through. My daily warpaint is a slick of mascara and lip balm. I'd love to be a yummy mummy but I'm not. This doesn't mean that I don't want to look ok when I leave the house so when the opportunity for a haircut appeared today I jumped at the chance.

I have a lovely hairdresser. Luckily I've known her for years so she's well aware of the fact that I do nothing to my hair. Everytime I walk in I remind her to cut my hair in a way that requires no styling. She must despair of me :-)

So today I walked in and really fancied a different cut. I've had a bob for a couple of years and it seems to work pretty well for me but it feels a bit boring now. So I opted to shave a chunk of my hair off. Bye bye boring hair! For the first time in a while I felt a bit fashionable and a bit edgy. And it feels good (perhaps I need to buy some new clothes too?).

One of the conundrums I am increasingly facing is how to be a mummy and still be me. Why do I feel like the two are difficult to marry? Why do I feel like I have to make myself fit into the 'yummy' category?! My new hair feels like part of this journey as I remind myself that I am still Kate and also a mum. And being both is great!

P.s I am writing this as I am cooking sausages. Either the blog or sausages will probably suffer at this multit-tasking. Apologies for any mistakes but I don't want a burnt sausage!