Today started as one of those days where I just felt a bit grumpy. Not really sure why but everything was bugging me and all I could focus on was the negative stuff -
▶ The house still hasn't sold despite almost 20 viewings
▶ I can't afford my 'forever' house
▶ I haven't been on holiday abroad for over two years
▶ I haven't gone out for dinner/to the theatre/cinema/to a gig for what feels likes ages
▶ I am a bad wife/mother/daughter/friend etc
▶ I am not thin enough
▶ I am not stylish enough
All of this negativity is exhausting and made me even grumpier.
Now I know in reality that these things are not true/unimportant. I know that the house will sell, that we will move house. I know that I will get more opportunities to go out or go on holidays. I know deep down that I am not a terrible wife/mother etc and I know that it doesn't really matter what I look like to the people who love me. I know that I have a pretty good life. I have brilliant family and friends and enough to get by. However knowing can be very different from feeling.
There was only one thing for it and that thing was a family trip out to a cafe to eat a piece of treacle tart followed by a mooch around John Lewis. My irks are not resolved (I am certainly not going to get any thinner by consoling myself with treacle tart) but I am trying to get things into perspective.
Is it just me that has days like this?
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